some quotes to pamper ourselves....

i always regretting myself...i keep blaming n blaming myself for e/thing...i dont realize that e/thing happen 4 a reason...Allah would not test HIS slave w/out a reason...bcoz of that i always be "not in mood" mode....n suddenly i feel like i want 2 read a book of Dr. 'Aidh B Abdullah al-Qarni "Jangan Bersedih-Jadilah Wanita y Plg Bahagia" that i bought a long time ago but never finish it...there i found many2 valuable n touchable quotes that sometimes i feel like it reflecting me...here i wanna share some of it with u all........

• kebahagiaan adalah spt mawar y dtanam....tidak lgsung berbunga sebaik shj dtanam...ttp ia pasti akan berbunga suatu hari..


• Jgn tujukan pndangan anda ke sudut2 y buruk dr kehidupan ini...ttp tujukanlah kpd sudut2 y indah.


• kenyataan y tidak boleh dhindari harus dterima...jika engkau gelisah sbb kenyataan i2....apa ertinya kegelisahan i2...


• Agar mnjadi seorg wanita y cntik....berfikirlah y positif.


• Benteng y plg kuat adalah wanita solehah.


• kehidupan y sebenarnya adlh apa y djalani oleh seseorg setiap saatnya....


• kenanglah semua kejayaan n kegembiraan i2 n lupakanlah kesulitan n bencana....


• lidah y keji akn lbih hanya mmberikn kesan buruk kpd pelakunya drpd y dterima oleh mangsanya.....


• Allah memafkan apa y telah lalu...


• esok akn merekah bunga y harum baunya tuk mengusir segala kesedihan n mnjdi pghibur hati....


• hitunglah nikmat Allah y dianugerahkankpd mudbg ganti dr mghtung penderitaanmu....


• sakit y tmbul oleh kata2 y melalui perasaan tidak dpat dbayangkan rasanya....

i guess it's enough 4 u all to comfort or make it as daily words....i regaining my mood n stop blaming myself bcoz of those words...

put your ego behind...trust your heart....

want 2 study but my mind so miserable....asyik mengenang dosa2 lalu aje...baru faham nape bile berdoa kite akan sebut hamba y hina n dina ni...sebab kite mmg byak dosa....xtau la org len tp i admit really admit y sy byak dosa...dosa pada manusia, haiwan2, alam sekitar...tp dosa pada Allah, masyaAllah xusah ckap...mmg xterkata byak nya...aku sllu pk apakah amalan aku dterima Allah?????????....perkara y pling aku kesalkan (aku rse mmg antara penyumbang dosa y terbyak) ialah aku xpernah nk amalkan "amal ma'ruf nahi mun'kar"....i can feel d burden of this sin when i know i'm not do that....pas2 aku akan rse nyesal y sgat2....especially when it involves my beloved pesons...i love them but when i can't tell them it feels like i dont love them....aku tau the feeling comes from the sin....n aku tau aku juga ade wat byak dosa len...impian aku ingin jd wanita solehah y dpat menjaga pertuturan, tgkah laku, ibadah, maruah diri. dlam smua2 ni y pling ssah tuk alu laksanakan adlah melaksanakan ibadah dgan smpurna....specially solat dgan pnuh kekhusyukan...adakah solat kiter dterima jika tidak khusyu'?...always worrying about that...n 1 more thing is my maruah diri...maruah diri ini bkan hya terletak pd percakapan dan tgkah laku...tp ia lbey kepada bagaimana kite mmbawa diri kita....pakaian....we can't say a person who wearing a loose jeans, loose blouse or refuse to wear pants is an outdated person. they are always be guarded by Malaikat..they are foolowing the Shariah...we can never left behind our shariah...but me????...why i cant be a part of them???? i really2 hope that i can be like them...especially when it comes to aurat...i try to keep it all the times when i'm around with my "bukan mahram". but sometimes i failed...there is some situations i can't fulfill it...that is my fault...aku lbey bsarkan ego aku drpada perasaan dosa....betapa besarnya dosa aku ni...sekarg bile aku rse diri x tenang, solat ssah nk khusyu', sllu ade problem, n ssah nk wat ibadah sunat, aku akn pk kan perkara2 ni....mmg sng nk menyesal tp utk kiter wat correction tuk sesalan kter 2 mmg ssah....aku smpai arini xberubah....

a punishment or a gift

what the relation between them....people nowadays tend to think that they have been punished for their wrongdoing if they experience any bad day (a.k.a karma)...but do they really been punished....for me if this happen, it means that Allah want 2 give us some gift that we never know when it'll be...if i think like that i can further my day life without blaming myself or my fate...because i know there will be a wonderful secret beside. i'm not a very good person but i know Allah will never leave His slaves alone and face a trial that they dont have effort to bear it eventhough we are very2 sinful slaves...all His arrangements is the best for us...if u think like this, im sure u will get ur strength to go on..

karma???...i'm not so sure wheter we as a Muslim can believe it...somebody who knows about it please help me...yes i admit there is a saying " what goes around comes around"...but i'm just think it is a fate...not a punishment...what do you think???

Insya Allah
Album :
Munsyid : Maher Zain

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost
That your so alone
All you is see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can`t see which way to go
Don`t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Insya Allah3x
Insya Allah you`ll find your way

Everytime you can make one more mistake
You feel you can`t repent
And that its way too late
Your`re so confused,wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame


Don`t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side
Insya Allah3x
Insya Allah you`ll find your way
Insya Allah3x
Insya Allah you`ll find your way

Turn to Allah
He`s never far away
Put your trust in Him
Raise your hands and pray
OOO Ya Allah
Guide my steps don`t let me go astray
You`re the only one that showed me the way,
Showed me the way 2x
Insya Allah3x
Insya Allah we`ll find the way

this time i would like 2 share InsyaAllah's lyric by maher zain....

rain in my heart...

now im searching my hero...i cant feel it...i feel like im lost...if only i can find the hero i know i'll survive..to telling the truth im down coz i'd been rejected by a firm 4 my practical training...how should i describe this feeling...i've tried not 2 regret or to blame myself bcoz i know there is s/thing hiding behind e/thing that Allah tries us...i believe that...now im just worrying about my placement...i worry if i will b put at a place where i dun hv accomodation. i can't drive n not have vehicle as well...that the part i'm worried most..i'm not blame my fate...i accept it...it's a part of life...we need experience that will make us mature...know how 2 handle it if the thing happen again...so i'll tahe it as a part of my experience in a journey 2 b matured..if i can handle this i know..i am the hero...wish my luck!!!!!!!

dunno why...can't understand why...need someone to rely on...but want 2 rely myself...the life is not such complicated...but we, ourselves who make it complicated..chhose 2 live in the miserable life although there is a choice to be in a peace...life without problems is same with a tree w/out fruits...the fruits are the one which make the tree different with others...although they are same fruits but the taste is still different...because they come from different tree..same goes with our life... just back 2 our nature...keep the faith with Islam..never forget 2 solah and prays...do it with all your heart n soul....we'll b in a feel that we never had b4..believe me...

We are hero for Ourselves....

HERO by MARIAH CAREY

There's a hero, If you look inside your heart

You don't have to be afraid, Of what you are

There's an answer, If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know, Will melt away

And then a hero comes along, With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside, And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone, Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth, That a hero lies in you

It's a long road, And you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand, For you to hold

You can find love, If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt, Will disappear

And then a hero comes along, With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside, And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone, Look inside you and be strong
And you finally see the truth, That a hero lies in you

Oh ho, Lord knows, Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone, Tear them away, hey yea

Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time, you find the way, hey....

i really2 like this song..when i feeling down or giving up..i will sing this song..it gives me a strength to wake up from those mourns..we're actually a hero and all the characteristics to be a hero are lie in ours...although we're not the type of superhero that save others life, but we are hero who save our own life..if we do not realize this we'll b easy to give up...we need 2 stand up...we can survive by ourselves w/out relying too much too others...when we feel lonely, i believe that we'll think that nobody care about us and with our pessimism we'll think that all those because of us who cannot b a good buddy or always be a spoiler...but this song teach me that we cannot just simply blame ourselves because it will turn us down..remember we are a hero...just find a way 2 make the things correctly w/out 2 much blaming ourselves...so readers...search and try 2 find your hero in your soul..we are hero 2 ourselves...it's within ourselves...

A Shoulder To Cry On

Life is full of lots of up and downs,
And the distance feels further when you're headed for the ground,
And there is nothing more painful than to let you're feelings take
you down,

It's so hard to know the way you feel inside,
When there's many thoughts and feelings that you hide,
But you might feel better if you let me walk with you
by your side,

And when you need a shoulder to cry on,
When you need a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
You won't be alone, cause I'll be there,
I'll be your shoulder to cry on,
I'll be there,
I'll be a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone, cause I'll be there.

All of the times when everything is wrong
And you're feeling like
There's no use going on
You can't give it up
I hope you work it out and carry on

Side by side,
With you till the end
I'll always be the one to firmly hold your hand
no matter what is said or done
our love will always continue on

Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on
everyone needs a friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone
you won't be alone cause I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be the one you rely on
when the whole world's gone
you won't be alone
cause I'll be there!

And when the whole world is gone
You'll always have my shoulder to cry on

Have u ever heard this song?...A Shoulder To Cry On singing by Tommy Page...if u r deepen the meaning behind this song u will eventually realize that u are very important 2 ur frenz...n think that u never be beside them whenever they need u...it happens 2 myselfthe phrase of "It's so hard to know the way you feel inside, When there's many thoughts and feelings that you hide, But you might feel better if you let me walk with you
by your side," make me think that i'm not good enough to my frens...if i could i wsant all of my frens talk with me n feel easy to share with me...i hope by doing this they can feel much better...but there is some miserable part of me..i dont have any word to pampered them..if i do i always make the things more complicated...how could i...i can't be d good speaker...but i've tried as hard as i could...but believe me i can b d good listener 2 u..people always make mistake..so am i..even it b like that but there is no full stop 4 me give my shoulder 2 anybody especially my frens..
"And when you need a shoulder to cry on,
When you need a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
You won't be alone, cause I'll be there,
I'll be your shoulder to cry on,
I'll be there,
I'll be a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone, cause I'll be there"..

I want always be like what this song said..hope u will find s/thing from this song

it's too hard

my intention to post all in english...but now it seem a such impossible to go on...camne nih...to write in english it takes a longer time..if use malay...cepat je dpat idea...can post ayat pnjg2 plak tuh...camne ni kawan...impian ku nak sahut cabaran my former english aku...tp kalo mcm ni la...rse nye cam separuh jalan je...camne nih...sometimes rse cam da malukan diri sendiri sbb post in english...da la phrase tunggang langgang...grammar pn hncur...word pn gune word dak2 sek rndah...malu kot...tp i2 la aku...ttap yakin walau ku tau i2 salah...huhuhuhu...but pray 4 me to go on with my initial dream...to post all in english excluding this post...

a big hope for a bright future

i dunno why...but i always think...is there has any space 4 me 2 b in succeeding community...i cant see any lite 4 me...somebody please help me...i keep thinking that my english knowledge will bring me down...nowadays an employer will hire an english expertise n also knowlegeable person...i'm not part of it...i like to read e/thing especially s/thing regarding my course..but i'm lack of sources as well as lack of understanding bout what the article wrote about...so i cut my way by stopping the interest..how could i...n 1 important thing is that i don have any achievement and involvement in curriculum activities...that's will b d biggest trouble 4 myself...how could i....
back 2 d topic...can a person like me be a part of this community???

deep inside my heart

assalamualaikum....this is my 1st touch to this blog..i know nothing bout this b4 but i know there is many controversi regarding blog world...and i think this is the time 4 me to be a part of it...but dun think wrongly...i'm not to create any controversi here...i will write from the deepest of my heart...insyaAllah..
i know when u are the person who know who am i, might think what a hell 4 me to post in English...am i very good in this languange to use it in my written...hrmm...if u r also think like that, it's okay...i'm not gonna to blame u..i admit i can't speak fluently n i also know very little bout English...but when my former BEL's lecturer told bout the fact of how poor malay students in English including me, it drives me to think bout to use this language frequently. In fact, he is the one who told us( me n my colleagues) to create a blog n post anything in English..Although he is no longer my lecturer (he be changed wit other lcturer due to the schedule)...i hope i can continue wit his suggestion...but i admit it is not 100% English...as u can see i just know the simple word of English...it will be improved soon...i really hope so..insyaAllah..amin..